In My Feelings!

Mike Jr got caught up in the moment.

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Welcome back to another edition of the Creative Fans Podcast. It's Mike Jr. coming at you, and I am solo today. Got a lot to unpackage. I hope you've been listening the last few, the last couple weeks or whatever. Had some really good uh podcasts out with the fellas. I hope you enjoyed those. I'm just coming today to I think what was it here? Last, well, let me see, let me get the date right. The podcast that I posted, I'm a little upset with myself. The 8th of June, I posted an After Talks podcast, and I posted the wrong one. I posted the right After Talk, but I didn't, I I edited it and I put in a intro, a beginning intro that talked about what was coming up for the next week and all that. And I ended up posting just the edited version of it without the intro. So I'm uh kicking myself, I was kicking myself a little bit, but it turned out to be a good thing because the podcast I said would happen on the 15th actually changed because of current events. We ended up doing June 15th, we ended up doing the child case where the uh agent guy got away with murdering the 14-year-old young man, shooting him in the back for allegedly stealing some bottled waters. But anyway, if you listen to those, you heard him. So that's what I'm trying to do more of lately. The last two podcasts, I didn't put a preview of what's coming up. And like I said, I can't do it every time because um you just don't know what current events. We're gonna try to jump on those more. Even though we only meet once a month, it's kind of hard to do it. But I can, you know, in the future, we're trying to be more available when stuff like that pop up to just kind of get together. But like I said before, only one of us is retired. Everybody else has still got their regular jobs. So sometimes it's not as easy for all of us to get together, but I'm tipping on some tea this morning. Shout out to tea. It's uh some celestial blend that I'm drinking this morning. But it's early Sunday morning, and I wanted to jump on and then I wanted to podcast about something that I saw on Facebook from a member of my church. A very nice young lady got much of a, I'm not gonna use any names. She posted a while back on Facebook a few weeks ago. She posted, I dream of a world where black boys are allowed to feel scared. She's Caucasian. She's my church was mixed. I went to the, it was a George Myers St. Louis Dream Center in St. Louis, and we had a diverse, I would say, crowd. Lots of kids from the inner city, the neighborhood, surrounding, and I taught some of the youth classes, taught some of these kids, and what disturbed me about her host, which this young lady, lover with all my heart, she's a fantastic young lady, but another person that went to our church put a post on her, on this comment that she made, saying, I dream of a world where black boys are allowed to feel scared. And another gentleman that went to our church made a very negative, he was involved in I'll just read his post. Maybe they should behave then and not murder people. And he's also a Caucasian. And this uh it was very alarming to me. It was very disturbing because at the time when we were all going to church together, we I thought we were cool with this guy. You know, he always kind of looked like that. Thinking back, you know, he had the kind of racist cop look, kinda like, but nice guy, you know what I'm saying? For all intents and purposes, uh what I knew of him, how I knew him, seemed like a very nice guy, which, you know, I don't understand the meaning behind that comment. And so a lot of people started posting from the church, outside the church, started posting. My sister posted some very good scripture saying, let judge not, let ye be judged, and just a lot of disappointment in what this guy. And I posted myself, I posted and I'll read mine. I'm learning there was a lot of false Christians sitting next to us at church. He's just another drop in that book. And it's really disappointing because I I have noticed a lot of since this whole second Trump run, the whole MAGA agenda, I have noticed a lot of, and some of them are pastors from this church, were making some very odd posts to me that didn't line up with how they presented themselves when we were all going to church. And now these guys you were teaching and praying and you know, sharing the Lord with African-American children and to make this be some of the posts that I had seen. And like I said, I'm not gonna use any names, I could, but I'm not gonna do that. It's just very alarming and heartbreaking, to say the least, because I feel like, you know, we sat and we broke bread with you, and what has changed, and it started me to thinking about religion and history in general and how it was presented to the African throughout slavery from its conception, you know, because to my knowledge, you know, and I have to do some research, but Africans, some more research, but based on the research that I've done, Africans weren't Christians. They weren't running around talking about Christianity. In Africa, Christianity was introduced to, from my knowledge, my ancestors through slavery. And through just uh Christians coming to other countries and imposing their religion in a lot of cases on other people. Now, I'm not speaking necessarily negatively towards Christianity or anything like that, because I do believe before Christianity was introduced, a lot of these people believed in God. It's just they got there a different way. Or they believed in a higher form, a higher life. And to me, I'm personally sick of the argument on who's right, who's wrong, when we're all getting to the same result in the end. So what makes one person a heathen just because they don't get there to that higher being or they don't call it God, they may call them something else, you know, Allah, Buddha, whatever, whoever, but you're still getting there, right? It's still the higher being if you are, if you believe in creation. It's still that higher being that started all, basically. And so seeing these comments and these other, seeing some of the responses from some of the other people, well, prior to this guy's comment, you know, just seeing all this, you know, it it really, you know, because I've throughout my life, I've been, like I said before, I've read the Quran, I've read the Bible, I've read the Quran twice, I've read the Bible maybe three or four times, you know, holding Bible, all the way through from beginning to end. Just because I want to know. I did a minimal research on Buddhism, you know, and I've always like tried to get an understanding of other religions because I have my beliefs. And I just, you know, and I've also looked into Catholicism, you know, the Catholic Church, and you know, I I have my I wasn't looking to convert or be, you know, any of these different uh religions. I just wanted to know more, a little more about. And during my research, you know, discovered in a lot of cases, like I said before, it's they all have an end game, a higher power that, you know, they believe is their savior. And just because you call it Lord, just because through Christianity, you go through Jesus to get to God, through Catholic Catholicism, you go through some saints to get to God, you you know, Muslim, you know, you go through the routes that you go through to get there. It's all the same at the end, you're getting there. And I just it's easily to get tainted on because a lot of times I I talk about offline with people that a lot of people don't will will be, I would say, taken aback or alarmed by my true beliefs. Because while I went to a Christian church, I consider myself non-denominational, but while I went to a Christian church, you know, I went for the fellowship because I'm gonna have my beliefs. And I liked pouring into the children and whatnot. And I never poured anything negative. I didn't try to force my beliefs on them, you know. I gave them what that church expected me to give them, which I'm not against. So it wasn't like I was sharing something that I didn't believe in myself. It's just I have my version of what I believe as far as how all of this works, but it's the same as everybody else. You know, there is a higher power, there is a God for me and my beliefs. And it just looking at all that, I can see where they, because I've been on that other side of the fence where I was like, okay, you want us to believe in your God, but all the atrocities that you did, did I say that word right? Anyway, that you did to African slaves while steady, while still holding the Bible, and then you see it to this day with Trump holding the Bible, and you just as evil as they come. And I know a lot of people that I went to church we voted for. And I'm not saying that makes you evil, but what I am saying is there is a problem when you support stuff that or someone that does evil while still trying to promote the Bible and God and Christianity. For me, that that I have a problem with that. And to sit back and watch someone use do evil and talk about God in the same sentence, you know, it's it's it's hypocrisy. And that's what I saw from this guy from the church, man. It's like, dude, you you sat around and you pretended to be something that you weren't. You ported to these kids, pretended to like them, and all this stuff. And here you are now. You I guess you're full-blown MAGA now, and now you just so into God that you realize that you should hate other people. What the F is that all about? So I kept reading, you know, once you go down and grab the hole of reading post on her, and another young lady from the church posted a very alarming post. And I'm not gonna read it. Maybe I should, I don't know, but I kind of don't want to read this. But it was very alarming. She posted something to the effect that I'll just summarize it, something to the effect that he should be ashamed of himself, because if she would have told that he was asking for pictures of her as a minor, like nudies, you know, topless or whatever. Pictures of her. And she was a minor at 17, I believe she said she was at the time. That what would the church or, you know, our pastor at that time would have thought if she would have told, but she said she didn't say anything because she was young and she didn't, you know, didn't really think about it. So here's this guy. He's a pervert, for one, potentially child molester. So who knows how many people he got to send him news and all the stuff that he was doing, but he's standing behind the veil of the church, and now you when you find out you might be racist too. I don't know. But, you know, it just reminded me, it just brought to the forefront of that's everything to me that MAGA is. Because if you want my opinion, I separate the two. I believe there are there's the Republican Party and then there's MAGA. To me, the Republican Party is the old guard, the the Liz Cheneys, the Mitt Romney's, the sane, normal Republicans who just had different views from the Democrats, and they knew how to argue and fight without going into all the racism and the BS that MAGA goes into. And to me, MAGA is just a filthy stain on the Republican Party and America. And it's a shame because I'm starting to see, but I will say this, I said it once before during Trump's first run. It brought out a lot of people's true colors. A lot of people that I thought was my friends, that I thought I was cool with. They showed their true hearts when MAGA was, you know, they felt comfortable, I guess, to say what they wanted to say, feel how they wanted to feel in the open. So I do thank MAGA for that, because it helped me clean out my closet, so to speak, but that's all I'm gonna give them credit for. You know, it's if you can give credit, if you want to give credit for, oh, great, the races, the race is not hiding in the corners anymore. They're out front now. Which to me is not such a bad thing. Because we needed to know, because, you know, it's just a lot of stuff. And with this whole uh the child case with him killing the young man, the 14-year-old, I I learned a whole lot of, well, I guess I knew it, but I just didn't, maybe I just didn't want to believe it, that, you know, the uh age and racism towards black Americans, you know, I I knew it. I just, you know, it was just like kind of like, you just kind of brushed it. I just kind of brushed it off because I'm like, you know, you guys are minorities too. You're discriminated against too. So what are you doing? But, you know, it's just further, I guess, evidence or proof of showing, like, not like we needed more, that the black man is the black race is the most hated race on this planet. I mean, we even hate ourselves. And it's just sad that everybody just wants to keep piling on on the black race. When a lot of times, like Godfrey always says, we just be minding our own business. Shout out to Godfrey, man. I do, I love Godfrey. His winning song when he came to St. Louis at the uh Helium Comedy Club, and we were sitting like right up front. So amazing dude. I love everything he does. I love what he stands for. And I love that he speaks his mind. And I support him 100% wholeheartedly because I truly, I don't feel he's a racist. I just feel like he's just like anybody else. Like you can have pride in who you are and the color of your skin and not do it in a racist way. And that's the confusion of all these MAGA and white nationalists and these proud boys and clan members. It was just white pride. But when you start, I'm all for white pride. Have pride in who you are. But when you start trying to put other people down in the name of that, or, you know, disparage other races in the name of that, that's when it's not cool, man. Because I'm a proud black man. I wouldn't change the color of my skin for anything because I I like being who I am. But I don't think it's wrong for somebody else being another color. I don't think it's wrong being Asian, white, Hispanic, or any of that. You know what I'm saying? They should be proud of who they are as well. I love our heritage, our history, you know, going back to Africa when I was a kid, I remember watching the Channel 9, all the shows they used to do on National Geographic with the African women with the baskets on their heads, walking to the river and breast all out. And I knew then, I'm like, oh, I'm married and one of those. You know, I was a kid, and seeing that, I was like, okay, that was my first, I guess, my first visions of beauty on television. And it holds true to this day. They're still beautiful, you know. And saying that, that's not saying that there isn't beautiful women in other races. Shout out to Michelle Pfizer, Julia Roberts, Rosario Dawson, you know, I mean, just numerous. What's the young lady? I have a super pressure on what is her name? Lisa, is it Lisa Lane? She does, she's a reporter. She does the news stuff, she's aging. And just beautiful. Her uh Zhao Name Z, I don't know how to pronounce it, but she was the actress and the Jackie Chan Rush Hours. Beautiful lady. And so was the Hispanic lady. I mean, just beautiful people everywhere. Shout out to Sanat Late. Can't leave her out. My God. Hello, Sanat. And to my wife, she's beautiful as well. But just looking at all of the stuff that's transpiring and all these people coming out of woodwork, it was just very disappointing to see this guy who all of these kids trusted. You know, and another one of the kids posted on there too that, yeah, you were you were in uh one of the black young men. Yeah, you were down there. Oh, no, no, no. It was, I think it was the lady who, the young lady who posted it, her brother was like, I hope you're not still teaching children. You're still not mentoring or pouring into children anymore because, you know, he was, he poured into a lot of kids there. And to come out and share those views. We talked about this. If you go back in, I think two weeks ago, on the 15th, we posted the child case. And I said in there that sorry, I'm sipping tea and picking my eye. But anyway, you know, uh, if you go back to that one, I I said in there about these people pretending to feel one way about a race or people, whatever, but every time something happens, you always, they always go to this whole, well, you should have raised them better. Oh, you should have raised them better. Like, like white kids, Hispanic kids, Asian kids don't do bad shit. They do. It's just that we, and we talked about this in the podcast, we just we don't control the narrative. You know, in the news, it looks like it's always black kids doing this, doing that. Yeah, we do our shit, but we do a lot of shit, and a lot that we shouldn't do. But so do other kids. And it's just when it's us, it's amplified, it's highlighted, it's magnified, it's everything. It's the end of the damn world, and we not good parents, we're not doing it. I I think there's there needs to be some better parenting in all the races, no matter what color. In humanity, there needs to be better parenting. But we always go there and do yourself a favor, go back and listen to the June 15th post because we talk about a lot of this stuff in that one, in that podcast, about the fact that what do you want from us? You took everything from us. Every time we tried to have anything on. Our own Black Wall Street, you know, our own neighborhoods, doing our own thing. You came in, burned it down, destroyed it. And then you tell us, well, we don't want you in our neighborhood sharing the stuff that we built up. But every time we try to build up our own, you destroy it. So what do you want from us? I mean, we get a leader that can lead us into this realm of self-independence and you know what I'm saying, focusing on the black pride, black unity. And you kill Juan Luther King, every black panther, Malcolm X, Pop, Easy. I think Easy. I think I mentioned that in the pod. Easy kind of killed himself, but I mean still. We you leave us with nothing. Like anytime you see Bill Cosby, we talk about that too. Go back and let's Bill Cosby tried to via NBC and you know, and a lot of people, you know, like one of the podcast members came in with the fact that, you know, Bill Cosby was drugging women or whatever. And it's like, yeah, man, I mean, when do we when do we put that same veil of forgiveness that everybody else gets onto our people? We all make mistakes. But it's always a lifetime conviction for blacks when we make a mistake. There is no coming back. It's a lifetime conviction. You're convicted for life. White football players can run around throwing around an N-word and get a job with another team, or I just say, oh, I'm sorry. And all of a sudden, oh, okay, he's good again. We can't say sorry. We're done for life. And, you know, I think the black community's community is just getting frustrated. We're tired of it. We're done with the nonsense. You know, a lot of times we do just want to be left alone and, you know, start focusing on building up stuff. But anyway, I'm not going because this, if I keep talking about it, it'll go back to the topic on the 15th because it's such a big topic, and it's so much more that, you know, we could not touch in a half an hour. And we try to keep these to half an hour. And I know we can go over, but you know, I feel like the human attention span, you know, you may get a half hour. A lot of us have a half-hour drive to work, so you can just pop out on the website, listen to it while you're driving to work or whatever, and be done. Or Apple, wherever you listen to your podcast. But just a little nugget, you know, I went to podcast on that because this, I read this weeks ago on her page, and it just bothered me that a lot of these guys that I went to church with, broke bread with, now all of a sudden they super maga, white nationalists, all this stuff. And it's like, where is this coming from? What happened? You know, whatever happened to that love and all people should be created equal, and we should work together to build a utopia or a dream that works for everybody or the majority. Whatever even happened to that, everybody's not gonna be happy, but you know, we're doing positive good things for the majority. And I mean, all we gotta do is start somewhere with not hating. And I would say to the black community, let's start there, stop hating each other first. You know, like Dr. Umar's feelings all the time. Clean up your own backyard. And he ain't he's not the first, but shout out to Dr. Umo, I am a fan. But, you know, just clean up your own before you you know, because you gotta start somewhere. Why not start there? That's all I have today, guys. Uh you know, I'm pretty sure watching the news feed, something else will come up. I can't post, I can't talk about what we're gonna have out next week, which would be looking at my calendar. Next week. So this is the 29th that this is coming out. So next week, the sixth. I don't know what we're gonna do. I don't know what's gonna be in the news. It'll be after the 4th of July holiday. So I will say this enjoy your 4th of July holiday because you won't hear from us again until the 6th. It'll be after the holiday, but shout out to Independence. You gotta stay blessed. Check out our website, d CreateFans.com.